In addition, The Pastor’s Kids is getting an audio version! Susie Fehr, who lives in Manitoba, only four hours north of where the book takes place in North Dakota, is finishing up the reading as I write. We found each other through acx.com, an exchange set up by (you guessed it) Amazon to help authors and audio producers find each other. It will be available on Audible, iTunes and Amazon when she finishes. This is thrilling. I am by this time an audiobook devotee and I know many other people are as well. I will keep you posted on this!
as food to life,
Or as sweet-season'd showers are to the ground. (Shakespeare)
Line, Marty and Paul, out beyond their boundaries, explore what it takes to grow up in this family epic with the overarching title "So Are You To My Thoughts".
The Pastor's Kids
Friday, December 18, 2020
Recent Developments
A couple of interesting developments at the end of the year: For one thing, Luther College bookstore requested the remaining books in the series, when they learned that I had completed it. For a self-published author to get their books onto a bookstore shelf is not easy (though I am, of course, an alumna), so I requested a photo. Here it is, appropriate to the times.
Wednesday, August 26, 2020
Novels to Live In
Having completed my series So Are You to My Thoughts,
and just now having re-read the series from beginning to end, I have some
thoughts on the kind of work it is. First and foremost, I believe they are
novels to live in. It might not even matter if you begin in the middle of the
series, and later go back to the beginning. You are going to find the
characters consistent, like people you might meet and then wonder about. “How
did Line and Stephen meet?” you ask. “Why does Paul move to Alaska?” or “Why
does Marty make poor choices?” In this case, you would be rewarded. Their
stories are there for all to see.
In addition, the novels exemplify what I think of as my
manifesto “against brilliance.” I have nothing against erudition, except when
it is a masquerade, when there are no clothes under the king’s ermine robe. One
does not need to go to an ivy league or big eight university to get an
excellent education. Education is more in one’s own hands. Art doesn’t need to
be larded with obfuscation and prizes. It needs to be meaningful. One doesn’t
need to learn code, finance or go to law school to find good work. Work in the
service of humans is everywhere. Glitz, glamour and fame are not how we should
measure our success. But in simpler ways, by the trust others have in us and
our fidelity to the lives and natures we have been given. By our ability to be
happy. And our country does not need to be the biggest cheese in the world,
saving other countries from themselves. Rather, we need to get back to our own
basics, spending money on education, health care and justice rather than on
armaments at every level.
None of us are perfect. Certainly my characters are not. But
their stories leave space for the reader to live among them. They show the
characters finding practices that fill them with delight and wonder: Paul
finding a way to live with loss in the heart of the country he loves most;
Marty finally learning to appreciate the beauty within herself and making a
home for a family which expresses it; Line having to tame her fierce maternal
energy into a watchful tolerance.
And they are stars, each with an epic story of their own
movement from a fixed childhood firmament into an expanding universe. Their own
dinner table conversations are thrilling, their houses and gardens are
beautiful and they are proud of the lives they lead.
The great anthropologist and poet Frederick Turner, in Beauty,
The Value of Values, published in 1991 imagines that the mid- 21st
century will be surprising to us, should we arrive there all of a sudden: We
would be “most surprised not by the expected innovations but by the way that
all of human cultural and biological history will have become part of the
landscape; by how magically corny, how shamefully old-fashioned, how
primate-like and tribal we will be among the almost invisible and intangible
miracles of our technology; by how slow and quiet everything will be, how
improvised, how richly ornamented; how closely we will live with the animals
and plants, how much in the open air; how gorgeously and formally and
anachronistically clothed we will be, how morally earnest and at the same time
how lighthearted, how accepting of shame and tragedy; how much also as we lived in the great pedestrian cities of the civilized past.”
I loved this vision of the future, so quiet and peaceful.
But we have far to go in that direction! Like Turner, I have written books
which state my own values, as over against those around me. Technology assists
me to assert them, whether anyone agrees or not. But one thing I can assure
you. The writer is dressed plainly, in cotton t-shirt, ragged jeans and tevas
on a warm day near the center of Los Angeles.
Monday, July 6, 2020
New Book Network Podcast
I’ve been listening to a lot of podcasts lately. It is a
good way to find out what it happening in literary culture when bookstores are
closed and you can’t get out as much. So, I happened on the New Book Network
coming out of Chicago, and in particular, G.P. Gottlieb, who reports on new
literature. I contacted her and she charmingly agreed to interview me,
regarding So Are You to My Thoughts, for the network.
So, in the middle of last month, Don hauled out his best
Schoeps microphone and set up a little studio for me. Galit (Gottlieb) invited
me to the Zencastr software and we recorded the interview! She put it together, it was edited for sound levels and so on, and it is now out. You can listen
to the interview by clicking the link below.
So Are You to My Thoughts is the last of a series of
books, all of which I could not expect Galit to read! She did read this last
one, however, and asked penetrating, interesting question about it, which
allowed me to say things I wanted to and a few I didn’t need to reveal. You can
hear me flailing about for a thought. That kind of thing where your brain is
going in several directions and you are quickly trying to determine which!
Galit is a writer herself, writing mysteries with recipes in them, which she
invites us all to test! You can hear the life and interests we share in our
conversation. Minnesota, Illinois, California. Food and wine, politics and
spiritual practices.
I was deeply grateful for the pleasure of being on her show!
Saturday, March 21, 2020
An End and a Beginning
So Are You to My Thoughts, the seventh and final book
in my series about Line, Marty and Paul Mikkelson, is now published and will
soon be available as both a paperback and a Kindle file from Amazon.com. I am
very happy to have brought this project, which took more than ten years, to an
end!
As fiction, the story is framed through my own lens. This
can’t be helped, though my characters get equal attention, and, I hope, each
has their own perspective. All, however, live real lives. There are no
princesses or goddesses, dystopic futures or dark secrets which come back to
haunt everyone. In this blog I have elucidated my positions, though in the
fiction they are simply embodied.
The beginning means that I must now begin to talk about the
books more! At least I think I will. One never knows. The books have nothing to
say about our current crisis around COVID-19, a world-wide pause which has
caught us all unaware. But someday the period between 1950 and 2010, when the
fictive lives of my characters ends, may be interesting to people. Polio, which
Paul has in the mid 1950’s, was certainly a frightening epidemic at the time.
Friday, November 29, 2019
Grateful
Among the many other gifts of the season, I’m grateful I
have been able to finish the first draft of my novel So Are You to My
Thoughts. It’s the final book in the series I have been writing for the
past ten years. There is a lot of work to do before the novel is published, as
it has been written sporadically and needs pulling together. But, there is no
getting around it. It’s done.
In this culminating novel, Line’s kids are all thriving. She
and Stephen continue to reside in Santa Cruz with Poppa, as the kids move into
their own lives. It is easier for Line to communicate with them, however, as
technology has improved. In her 60’s, Line begins to feel something is wrong.
Eventually she is diagnosed with progressive multiple sclerosis which at first horrifies her. She
gradually becomes used to her new condition, with Stephen stepping in to help.
For Paul, the book begins with the loss of Marie. He finds a
place for himself, however, when Ellie and Bruce decide they can rebuild the
family’s lake cabin. It will become a year-round home, with Paul in residence
as manager. The building process is exciting and Paul is thrilled to find
himself deep in northern Minnesota where he always wanted to be. Marie’s
daughter and her children remain his family.
Marty’s single life is completely disrupted when she moves
in with Doug at the Boulder Creek ranch on the mountain above Santa Cruz. She
becomes the household anchor for the family, since Doug works hard and the kids
are all in school. As a father, Doug is full of ideas about what he wants for
his kids. Marty helps implement them. During some of the kids’ high school
years, the family moves in to Santa Cruz to be closer to activities. By the end
of the book, the kids have their eyes on college. Marty and Doug are amazed at
how quickly they grew up.
Lewis Hyde in The Gift: Creativity and the Artist in the
Modern World, says “For the slow labor of realizing a potential gift the
artist must retreat to those Bohemias, halfway between the slums and the
library, where life is not counted by the clock and where the talented may be
sure they will be ignored until that time, if it ever comes, when their gifts
are viable enough to be set free and survive in the world.” I have come to that
place, indeed, when we see whether the books are viable enough to survive in
the modern world.
This is not to say that I am sure the books qualify as
“art.” Art, with a capital A, is a romantic idea, often supported by a lot of
hype, to which I don’t subscribe. All of us bring art to our lives, and
occasionally try to embody in words or music or the other arts the spirit we
cannot contain, that we feel we must share.
I hoped the books would show, in one group of siblings, born
into a particular place and time, how one grows into a self and then sets out
to share that self with a larger family. It is always an adventure, an odyssey
through uncharted waters. But, as with most adventurers, home, and the making
of a home, is the goal. I have been blessed every day with ideas and scenes I
call up from memory or create from research, often a combination of the two.
Saturday, November 2, 2019
Tipping My Hand
Readers of this blog will have noticed common themes running
through its posts. As I near the end of the first draft of my final book, So
Are You to My Thoughts, I think often of the value system embodied in the
characters. I haven’t tried to make it explicit, as it is indeed meant to be
reflected in their actions and thoughts. Their human natures
compel their actions, while their feelings and thoughts make meaning of them.
In our study of tai chi, the Taoist way and its principles,
we were taught an exercise between two people in which we first “listened” with
our bodies, “surrendered” to the other person, “transformed” their energy as it
came toward us, and finally “pushed.” It is a practice of balance within
oneself, and harmony between people, which also results in positive
accomplishment.
In my work, I’ve tried to show that there are ways of taking the
material you grow up with and find in yourself and transforming it.
Thus the freedom everyone in my generation fought for (“like a bird on a wire,
like a drunk in a midnight choir”) does not have to be freedom from anything.
It can be freedom to make homes, families and lives of which we are proud and
which honor those we love.
Likewise, the self definition which many of us were so
desperate about can be understood in terms not of self expression, but of
service. Beyond the idea that only a few are called to become artists,
documenting every last impulse, we can recognize that all of us are able to
display the cardinal virtues of discernment, courage, temperance and fairness.
Cultivation of these virtues enables us to live beside each other in harmony
and peace.
A third major preoccupation of my generation was lifestyle,
making new ways to live beyond the traditional furniture-ridden, unquestioned
round of those who had gone before. Transforming this impulse to trash the
past, we can educate ourselves to live with grace and taste, seeing these as
elements of everything we do.
Goodness, truth, and beauty have long been the ideals of
humanity. Keats saw in the Grecian urn that “Beauty is truth, truth beauty.”
None of this triad exists without the other. I associate freedom with truth, as
all paths must be open in order to find it. Beauty has within it the necessity
for authenticity, as in nature, where nothing is anything but itself. Goodness
too is hollow without the backbone of character. Victimhood has been the
subject of art, and of people’s prurient interest, way too long. And people
hardly believe they have a right to beauty, that they know what it is. We can
turn our gaze back to these ideals.
In his book, The Culture of Hope: A New Birth of the
Classical Spirit [1995], Frederick Turner says: “The greatest arts are, I
believe, not those which cause a stir on museum walls or extend some ‘shocking’
modern or post-modern critical theory into yet another posture or attitude, but
those arts which intensify ordinary human existence and fill it with meaning,
that make a home into a place that recalls all our beautiful and tragic past,
and points to futures that are as human as they are strange and adventurous.”
John Bayley pointed out, regarding Czeslaw Milosz, that he
was beyond ideology, having lived through so much change and violence during
the 20th century. Milosz was “not after himself, but after that old
European goal of cultivation and understanding, enlightenment and humanitas.”
The U.S. too is growing up, forging a new culture not seen before from its
indigenous peoples, its immigrants and its unique place on the globe. Humans
evolve slowly, but culture is quick. We can do better than we have in recent
years. Postmodernism, with its identity and power politics, is a dead end. We
are over it. Time to look back and pick up the pieces.
Tuesday, September 10, 2019
Back to the Root
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| White Pine, Itasca State Park |
This year, there was a lot of discussion about trees! All
three of my sisters were reading The Overstory, by Richard Powers. I
have it on hold at the Los Angeles Public Library and cannot wait to read it
myself. But it isn’t as if I need to. My parents deeply loved trees and planted
them everywhere. In the front yard of the home his parents built in Renville,
Minnesota, Dad planted a dogwood which grew quite tall. To me it was an exotic.
I had never seen one anywhere else, except in Yosemite in the spring, when the
dogwood flowers bloomed white and ethereal between the dark trunks of the
forest.
At the parsonages I grew up in, Dad often planted apple
trees. I remember several across northern Iowa. Planting an apple tree has no
downside. When we began to go up to the lake cabin I mentioned above, he would
stop at the Badoura Nursery in the spring and collect the seedlings he had
ordered (you could not order less than 500 if you wanted a mixed pack of
seedlings), planting them on the property. I remember being on at least one of
these spring trips, when the air was still quite cold, and I was happy to spade
up soil, insert seedlings and tamp them down to keep warm!
I’ve been amazed to learn how few seedlings survive and grow
to maturity. Peter Wohlleben describes in The Hidden Life of Trees how
prolific tree seedlings must be to get even a few trees to make it. Partly it
is a matter of photosynthesis, young trees fighting for light, though they live
under their “mothers,” who share nutrients with them. He points out that slow
growth is good for a tree. But also it is a matter of animals eating the fresh,
tender shoots, the salad of the forest. So I was impressed that my sister had
broken up the ancient stone firepit my Dad built at the edge of the lawn. She
was afraid using it would damage the two white pines, grown from Dad’s
seedlings, which now towered above the cabin at that spot.
White pines are fluffier, my brother pointed out, with five
needles to a clump. Red pines, what my parents called Norways, have two needles
per clump and look stiffer, not as wispy as a white pine. They are all native,
and looking up at the red pine at the edge of the lake, we thought that some of
them were certainly over one hundred years old. Perhaps two hundred. When Dad
established the dock, more than 50 years ago, he built it in among these
favorite “Norways.” Mother loved them. I didn’t count them, but there seemed to
be at least ten along the shoreline.
As a group, we went over to Itasca, a Minnesota State Park
which was only the second in the country, after Niagara Falls. It was
established because logging was ferocious at the time, and Jacob V. Brower
got the state legislature to pass, by one vote, a bill establishing the park in
1891. Brower wanted to save some of the stands of red and white pines still
thriving at the time. We visited a protected 300-year-old white pine, and noted
the loss of the crown of an ancient red pine nearby, along the “wilderness
loop” running through the park. I have very early memories of this park, as my
aunt, Esther Frost, worked at the lodge during the summers when she was a young
woman. She rented cabins for us to vacation in for a few summers also, before
the cabin at the lake was established.
Everyone knows, by now, that trees take carbon from the air
and process it, helping to cool our over-heated planet. Forest protection,
regeneration and cultivation mitigate the inroads our comfort-seeking cultures
have made on the earth. Families too thrive in an atmosphere of conservation
and care. I was thrilled to visit the roots of my own.
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